//29.7.2003 6:44:09 PM
Life's picking up...
It's getting harder and harder to squeeze in my gym training now that my work is coming in... I have to keep my schedule and all that now and almost everyday my supposedly clear study schedule would mysteriously be filled with appointments, meetings and stuff. sigh... I find that I have to rush through my gym and can't have a relaxing workout... I hardly go to the sauna anymore...
But all is good thank God... At least there are things to do and my life is of a certain direction... Now I'm seriously thinking if I were to take on PhD when it's offered to me 'if' I get the scholarship... will I have the finances and the energy to do it... For 3 years man!
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//26.7.2003 6:29:26 PM
North Stratbroke Island
Today I had the best experience on a beach in my how life! (so far)... I have yet to see Frasier and Moreton Island though...
It was organized by the school's international student services. So I joined it with my friends. It's very fun! The beach is like the actual beach in the show by Leonardo Decarprio (however it is spelt), 'The Beach'. You can actually see the sea bed from up on the cliff! I saw whales and dolphins too...
It was really cold today, like ice cold, but we still went ahead to swim in the beach... It was so cool! Today is the first day I actually felt like a tourist in Brisbane  complete with coach and all...
I am now at my friend's place playing Raven Shield... Will post photos soon...
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//24.7.2003 7:55:49 PM
Wild goose chase
The past few days after the failed scholarship attempt has been a wild goose chase... E-mailing people to make appointment for meetings to discuss potential research topic and project meetings and amidst all these I still have to schedule in my gym session... Phew!
Semi-good news is that I have finally chosen a research topic and have e-mailed my future-supervisor about the choice. However, this gives rise to another complication... 'Cos initially I wanted to stay during summer for more study and not go back to Singapore but now it seems that my friend Cherri, who got the scholarship has changed her study plans as suggested by her supervisor which incidently is my super as well. So since we are essentially take the same subjects together be might have to do some changes to the way we assign our units... and thus giving rise to more complication... We then have to see the course coordinator to discuss about overloading next semester and all that...
Sigh... this is already almost the end of the 2nd week and all these have yet to be done... I can only sign in relief only when all these is done... then I have to worry about my project and my theses... Hmm... what have I gotten myself into?
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//23.7.2003 8:02:28 AM
Changed home phone number
I've canceled my phone line and am using Rufus's number now as we have started using broadband and are sharing the home phone line... To get the new number just send me an sms. That's it for now ciao!
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//22.7.2003 9:32:51 AM
The interview...
I just finished an interview with for a scholarship I applied for entitled 'The actual use of Modeling in SAP projects'. It was quite nerve wrecking... I hope I got it though. At first I thought it was for a team of researchers but it turned out that they were actually looking for only one candidate... So only one of us will get it hahaha (laugh evily)...
The interview went ok... So I guess I will get the result of it this afternoon. It all depends on God now I guess...
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//21.7.2003 8:24:54 AM
Tired of life...
My laziness is kicking in again... First time today in a long long time I refused to wake up... Didn't feel like doing anything... sigh I've got much to do this week... need to get my medical examination done, my x-rays and lessons and tutorials to do and attend.
I've also got an interview for the scholarship I applied for tomorrow! I hate interviews... They make me nervous. Haven't had an interview for almost 2 years now since my last job at abecha. Hope I get the scholarship though... It's with this big company called SAP and if God willing I might land myself with a job offer after the course! Since they are doing so well these days as an IT giant in the industry and all...
The reality of this new semester still hasn't kicked in yet... I better got it together soon...
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//19.7.2003 10:13:55 AM
New photos as requested
Ok new photos are up! you can click here to see them... Rushing off to gym... Feeling kinda lazy but I need to add some backend functions to BV... Maybe I'll do it this afternoon, or maybe I will sleep. That's why I say version 4 beta will stay for some time... sigh...
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//18.7.2003 9:28:55 AM
Clearing the air
Many people misunderstand my 'A fresh start to a new life' entry... It IS a new start for me in a whole new level in my studies and a new chapter to my life. However, I want to clear the air about the last paragraph in the entry... I don't 'hate' Kat. In fact I'm still very much in love with her. The tone of the message was written wrongly I guess... I was rushing out to gym ... It was merely my personal motivational 'speech'
Anyways, I'm not gonna be a petty sore loser and start hating her or bad mouthing her or whatever... We are still gonna be good friends. She is by far the person the understands and support me the most. I believe if we start making enemies of our ex-s then how different are we from the gossip-mongers I so often see in churches and the modern 'pharasees' and 'saducees'. Aren't we suppose to even 'love thine enemies'? She IS after all a sister in Christ.
I like what someone once said... 'I hate to see another Clara phenomenon'. If God is mercyful and full of grace to forgive us... who are we to judge others?
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//17.7.2003 9:15:38 PM
Life after a new start
Yah I guess we are forever learning and growing... There is no limit to how 'mature' we can get... I took my mum's advice and pray just before I sleep for a good night's rest and not have unwanted memories in my dreams and it's working praise God.
Looking back at my life I've fallen and stood up so many times in my life I feel tired sometimes about it... But I figured if I can't make it in one area of my life I might as well divert attention to other areas I know I can do well.
My mum says I sound to 'proud' saying all those things about me being smart and all... I guess its partly my own ego and pride that I have but most of all its the very same ego and pride that got me through thus far, not to mention with a whole lot of God's help...
Anyways, spent a day at sunshine coast again today went to many places playing tour guide to my friend's friend and also to keep my mind busy... I should enjoy my time now as in a few weeks time once I fix on a thesis topic I might not be so free anymore...
Planning to start swimming tomorrow on top of my swimming routine... Have not swam in quite a while...
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//15.7.2003 4:07:27 PM
Room deco
Did many things today... Went gym, bought perfume for myself and went down to the city to get my medical form and also laminated the 2 paintings I bought so I could hang it up in my room.
I bought the paintings from this guy on the streets of surfer's paradise. The entire painting was done on just spray paints! It's great! I will put up pictures of it and some others soon...
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//15.7.2003 7:58:20 AM
A fresh start to a new life
Ok I said that I would write this once I accept reality and stop dreaming. For some, to hear this would be a relief and others would think I deserve it. But seriously, I don't care... so here goes...
Kat (my ex-fiancee) broke up with me 3 months ago pulling the its-not-you-its-me speech on me and the let's-still-be-friends one as well. So you all know what those scenarios are. I loved her with all my heart but I suddenly felt a sharp pain of role reversal compared to the pain I inflicted on my other ex-girlfriends. Guess its true how things you do in life sometimes comes back to bite you...
After 3 months of pain, loss and torture I think its time to rise up above this and take advantage of my disadvantage... I started school again... Yesterday was my first day. For those of you who still don't know I am furthering with honours and subsequently masters. Why? 'cos I can continue to PhD in future.
After yesterday's scare of the first day I know that I needed a new start, to concentrate on my thesis, to finally put my brilliant mind back to work. Yes I AM smart, I AM beautiful and I AM strong. God has brought me this far in my studies and I am going further with Him.
So to kat, this fall has been my motivation 'cos I was the best ex-bf you will ever have, the smartest, the strongest, the most caring, the closest to God and the one that have given you the deepest love you ever felt.
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//12.7.2003 6:45:43 AM
Don't you just hate dreams?
I hate dreams! Recently I've been dreaming a lot lately and I hate it! When it's too good to be true I wake up and feel down the whole day... If it's too sad and traumatic, I wake up and feel down the whole day too!
Why can't memories just be a switch we can turn off and on whenever we want too?!
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//10.7.2003 7:28:39 PM
Back from gold coast...
I'm back! Very tired and feeling a little unwell... I can't really tell what it is... it's like a mix of fever and stomach upset... I think it feels like stomach cramps but since I never experienced it before I wouldn't really know for sure...
Drove a lot today and even went to the gold coast casino! it's kinda cool I had to 'peel' my aunties away from that place
I better go pack and turn in early today... Will write more (hopefully) tml...
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//8.7.2003 6:32:33 AM
I have visitors
Gary, my 2 aunties and my grandmother has come to town! I have to to show them around brisbane and gold coast it's kinda cool! haven't had a visitor since belinda came along...
Went to 'yum cha' yesterday and we cooked dinner at my place... I will be gone to gold coast for a few days... so ciao!
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//6.7.2003 2:07:57 PM
Best seafood ever eaten!
I went down to Gold Coast yesterday to meet up with Ernest... He's here for a holiday and we went to this place for fine dining in seafood...We had this seafood platter that is $65 per person! But the seafood is great! We couldn't finish everything though so we had to take away the rest and guess who got all the food  ... Though it's expensive the seafood are fresh and even the lobster is good!
Anyway, now I'm back in my quiet 'lil room watching my cartoons and waiting for Gary, my aunties and my grandmother to arrive tomorrow... Today is just one of those days I don't feel like doing anything... Had an awful dream the night before (that's very close to present reality) something I'm trying to run away from... Guess it kinda set my mood for the next few days... If not for the seafood, I would prolly be rotting in my room these few days til they come tomorrow... Thanks Ernest! For the wonderful seafood experience! (like advertising for the place)
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//2.7.2003 11:38:49 PM
Lonely and bored
I just came back from Issac's place... Played a bit of monopoly (I won! ) and had a late night supper of Doner kebab near his place. For someone who doesn't like to eat kebab this place sells the best! I also had their Labanese coffee... It's really powerful! It contains the potency of espresso but smells and tastes better!
Bernard and I wondered around after the show (the Core) thinking of what to do before we decided to go Zac's place... With Rufus and Hsu gone and most of my other friends not being around I really felt all alone in this foreign land. I used to think it's ok 'cos I have someone I can call to talk to but now even that is not a luxury I have anymore...
To those who might go 'huh?' on the last sentence... Maybe I'll explain another day... When I finally can accept the truth. Right now I'm still in a mixed state of hope and denial...
Ok better go get some sleep... I need proper sleep for gym tomorrow. It's bicep and 4km run day... Hope I can still sleep though after the shot of Labanese coffee... Ciao!
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//2.7.2003 8:49:31 AM
Ok I'm back
This is a lazy job, that's why I'm calling it version 4 beta... But I guess it's gonna be beta for quite a while  ... Leave you comments on how this new version look... duh... who cares what you think about how MY site should look like hmm?
This is a new entry a fresh start... And... I have to go! I'm already late for gym... Ciao will write somemore one why I disappeared
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