//3.2.2006 2:34:51 PM
Wonderful Cindy...
I was tasked to send Cindy to the vet yesterday in the morning. Because of the wonderful flexibility of my job nature, I was able to do it. The reason why I titled this "wonderful Cindy" its really a sad story. Cindy, when we first got her was really dirty and filthy. Skinny to the bone and really frightened. Frightened of everyone and everything around her. (for those who still don't know, Cindy is a 9 year old greyhound we vonlunteered to foster). We cleaned her up, showed her to her new environment and took her in. Through the past 2 weeks we saw a girl who started to enjoy her environment now and wags her tail when she's happy. When we first got her her tail was ALWAYS between her legs.
Kat and I decided that we would not keep her permanently as our financial situation cannot warrant it. So we have been taking care of her thinking that we will have to give her up for adoption eventually.
So what has all this got to do with the vet visit? Well the check up was meant to determine if she is fit to get into the Greyhound Adoption Program (GAP). Throughout the trip there I was supprises at how obedient she was! She climbed into the car, sat down immediately and kept still and quiet for the whole 45mins ride. Never gave me problems. Even when I had to detour when I went home to the office for 15mins she stayed in the car without whining. I started to appreciate her obedience and wonderful nature! She is an old woman now (61 human years) but she is so different from our wilful and playful Katie.
What guts me so much after this trip is a combination of these 3 things:
- Seeing how sad her past was and how bad her previous living environments were.
- Seeing how wonderful she is through this trip to the vet and feel how warm she is with us despite her uncertainties.
- All these... but she still FAILED the checkup because of health issues. She's got cataract in her eyes and Glaucoma on her right eye. And she might have something wrong with her heart beat. Furthermore, she is already 9!
This means that GAP cannot take her in and that if we can't afford to keep her, her future is once again bleak. Seeing her suffered for 9 years not knowing the warmth of an actual home environment, living in kennels and racing grounds, it just guts me inside to see that she is yet again unwanted - deemed unfit! Its truly something that can make you cry.
Now I look at Cindy and I can't help but feel the same way when I look at my grandmother in Singapore... Quietly sitting there... All swiveled up and "unwanted". After my grandad died, she sorta went down hill. She no longer has to motivation to move on, thus her mind started slipping... forgetting things etc... Its the same feeling!
When I go visit or call her, she lights up! Gets all excited and starts telling everyone proudly of what I said or did. When I go home to Cindy and see her eversince the vet trip, I get the same sad feeling... They both get all excited to see/hear me.. but yet deep down inside I can't help but feel extremely sad for them...
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